Letter to myself

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 Dear Me, 

I hope you are doing well and that things though not going as you want them to are still bright. After all it is summer when the sun is at its brightest. And stay bright by counting your blessings. 

I know you want to jot down your thoughts but thoughts are like a bullet train - like a river- constantly flowing, never stopping. Thoughts - some which we want to share with the world; thoughts - some which are bottled up because they are better there. Let them dissolve in that bottle in the solution of tears. Tears of loneliness, of sorrow, of hurt, of anger, of disappointment, of frustration, of helplessness and many untold emotions. 

I wonder after they dissolve, do they go away or remain in liquid form in the bottle? If so then I need to open the bottle and keep it in the sun for the solution of tears and thoughts to evaporate. Then I will be left with an empty bottle with traces of both the sunshine and the evaporated solution. Because it never really gets empty. Like the mind that never fully becomes empty. 

Even if the emotions of the bottled thoughts fade, the memory remains which too gradually fades and the brain is left with just the traces like the traces in the bottle. And then it does not matter at all. The bottle is emptied to be re-used again maybe with brighter memories, so what if the traces of bitterness, sorrow, anger and frustration still linger? 

They are only traces now - minuscule and negligible. Don't forget the bottle also has traces of sunshine! And that matters. 

Sunshine is Noor - the light that makes things light when the world weighs you down. 

So dear Me, keep shining, sharing, caring, breathing and believing. 

Masalaam,

Me 💖